classic waka stream

見し夢にやがてまぎれぬ我が身こそ
問はるる今日もまづ悲しけれ
Roma-ji

Mishi yume ni yagate magirenu waga mi koso towaruru kyō mo mazu kanashikere

English Translation
In the dream I saw,
not lost at once with it—
this self of mine
today, receiving your words,
is what first brings me sorrow.
Meaning
It is this self of mine, which was not lost together with the dream I saw, that grieves me first of all, even today as I receive your condolences.
Commentary
Book Eight Lament Poems 829

Headnote: "Reply."
This is the third poem of the sequence on visits of mourning and condolence, a reply to the preceding poem. It answers that it is his own self, which was not lost together with the dream he saw, that grieves him first of all even on this day of receiving condolences. The headnote says "Reply," answering Shunzei's poem before it.
The son of Kujō Kanezane, the author rose to Regent and Grand Minister and wrote the kana preface to the Shin Kokin Wakashū.
The scene is the same autumn of the year his wife died as the preceding poem, and the place is not recorded.
The direct occasion is the reply to the poem sent by Shunzei in the preceding poem.

The first line, "mishi yume ni," takes up "yume no uchi" from the preceding poem, meaning "in the dream I saw," the dream of his wife's death.
In the second line, "yagate magirenu," "yagate" means "just as it was." "Magiru" means to be lost from sight, and "nu" is the attributive form of the negative "zu," meaning "not lost together with the dream."
In the third line, "waga mi koso," "koso" is an emphatic binding particle, completed by "kere" in the realis form in the last line. It singles out his own self, which survived without vanishing with his wife.
In the fourth line, "towaruru kyō mo," "towaruru" means to receive condolences, with "ruru" passive. It refers to the day on which he has received the preceding poem's condolences.
In the last line, "mazu kanashikere," "mazu" means "first of all." Where the preceding poem did not wish to startle one within a dream, this reply says that it is he himself, awake from the dream and still alive, who is to be grieved over. Taking up "yume no uchi" and "odorokasaji" from the preceding poem, it shows the sorrow of a self that remained, not lost in the dream.
Author
Fujiwara no Yoshitsune
Source
Shin Kokin Wakashu
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