Magau ramu koromo no tama ni midaretsutsu nao mada samenu kokochi koso sure - Shin Kokin Wakashu(English Translation & Meaning)

まがふらむ衣の玉に乱れつつ
なほまださめぬ心地こそすれ

Roma-ji: Magau ramu koromo no tama ni midaretsutsu nao mada samenu kokochi koso sure
English Translation: By the jewel in my robe
that you say your tears are like,
my heart is thrown into turmoil;
still, even now, I feel that
I have not yet truly woken.
Meaning: My heart is thrown into turmoil by the jewel in my robe that your tears are said to resemble, and I feel that even now I have not yet awakened.
Commentary: Book Eighteen Miscellaneous Poems III 1715

Headnote: "Reply."
This is the fifth of the poems exchanged with gifts of garments and ornaments on the occasion of taking vows, a reply to the preceding poem. Her heart troubled by the jewel of her robe, said to be indistinguishable from her sister's tears, she feels that even now, having taken vows, she has not yet woken from delusion. Moved by her sister's affection, she frankly confesses that she has not wholly cast off the world.
The author, "Jōtōmon-in," is Fujiwara no Shōshi. A daughter of Fujiwara no Michinaga, she became consort to Emperor Ichijō and bore Emperors Go-Ichijō and Go-Suzaku. She later took vows, became a Retired Lady, and was called Jōtōmon-in. Murasaki Shikibu and Izumi Shikibu served her.

The first line, "magau ramu," takes up "magawamu" from the last line of the preceding poem. Meaning "that which you say is indistinguishable," it picks up the other's words just as they are.
The second line, "koromo no tama ni," takes up "the jewel of the lining" in the preceding poem. The jewel of the Lotus Sutra parable, the beads of the rosary she was given, and her sister's tears overlap.
The third line, "midaretsutsu," means "my heart ever in turmoil." "Midaru" also suggests jewels scattering when their cord breaks, and is an associated word for "jewel."
The fourth line, "nao mada samenu," means "still not yet awake." Drawing on the man in the parable who never woke from his drunken sleep to find the jewel, it speaks of herself, not yet woken from delusion.
The last line, "kokochi koso sure," closes the kakari-musubi of "koso" with the realis form "sure." She frankly admits that even after taking vows her heart is still stirred by affection.
Author: Fujiwara no Shōshi
Source: Shin Kokin Wakashu
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