Kyō made wa hito o nagekite kurenikeri itsu mi no ue ni naramu to su ramu - Shin Kokin Wakashu(English Translation & Meaning)

今日までは人を嘆きて暮れにけり
いつ身の上にならむとすらむ

Roma-ji: Kyō made wa hito o nagekite kurenikeri itsu mi no ue ni naramu to su ramu
English Translation: Until today
I have grieved for others, and
the day has ended;
when will it come to pass that
it is my own turn instead?
Meaning: Until today I have spent my days grieving for others; when will it come to be my own turn?
Commentary: Book Eighteen Miscellaneous Poems III 1787

Headnote: "At a time when the world was full of impermanence."
This is the first of the poems on impermanence. Until today he has passed his days grieving for those who died, but when will it be his own turn? According to the headnote, it was composed at a time when deaths followed one after another and impermanence was keenly felt; grieving for others, he comes to feel his own death close at hand.
The author, "Ōe no Yoshitoki," was a poet of the mid-Heian period who was appointed Governor of Tsushima.

The first line, "kyō made wa," means "until today, at least." "Wa" implies that what lies ahead will differ.
The second line, "hito o nagekite," means "grieving for those who have died."
The third line, "kurenikeri," means "the day has ended." It lays the close of a day over days spent grieving for others, and the poem pauses here.
The fourth line, "itsu mi no ue ni," means "when will it be my own affair." "Others" in the second line and "myself" here form a pair.
The last line, "naramu to su ramu," means "is it about to become?" "Ramu" is an auxiliary of present conjecture, closing with anxiety over when his own death will come.
Author: Ōe no Yoshitoki
Source: Shin Kokin Wakashu
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