よしゑやし来まさぬ君を何せむに
いとはず我れは恋ひつつ居らむ
いとはず我れは恋ひつつ居らむ
- Roma-ji
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Yoshieyashi kimasanu kimi o nani semu ni itowazu are wa koitsutsu oramu
- English Translation
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What is it to me?
You who never come to me,
for what purpose then
should I, not tired of you, stay
here and go on longing still
- Meaning
- Well, so be it. Why should I go on loving you, who never come, without ever growing weary of you?
- Commentary
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Book Eleven Love Poems Ancient and Modern I 2378
Headnote continued from the preceding poem: "Expressing One's Feelings Directly"
Why should I go on loving someone who never comes, without ever coming to hate him? I will give him up: so the speaker tells herself. The poem reveals a heart wavering between resentment toward a lover who does not visit and a feeling that still cannot be cut off.
The headnote continues from the preceding poem, "Expressing One's Feelings Directly." Using the same phrase "nani semu ni" as the preceding poem, it follows a man's lament with a poem from the side of a woman waiting for a man who does not come. "Kimasanu kimi" answers to "kimi ga kimasanu" at the end of poem 2380, and the poem shares the word "koitsutsu" with the next poem, 2379.
The author is unknown; according to the left note, the poem comes from the Kakinomoto no Hitomaro Collection. That collection is thought to contain both Hitomaro's own poems and poems by others that he recorded. Kakinomoto no Hitomaro was a court poet active in the reigns of Empress Jito and Emperor Monmu, and is counted among the Thirty-Six Immortal Poets.
First line, "yoshieyashi": an exclamation meaning "well, so be it, whatever happens." At the outset it shows a reckless mood of trying to give up.
Second line, "kimasanu kimi o": "you who do not come." "Kimasu" is an honorific of "ku," to come, followed by the attributive of the negative "zu."
Third line, "nani semu ni": "why?" The same phrase as the opening of the preceding poem, here it pairs with "mu" at the end to form a rhetorical question.
Fourth line, "itowazu are wa": "I, without disliking you." "Itou" means to dislike and avoid, and "zu" negates it.
Fifth line, "koitsutsu oramu": "should I go on loving? No, I will not." The auxiliary "mu" answers "nani semu ni" in the third line to make a rhetorical question, and "tsutsu" marks continuing action.
- Author
- Kakinomoto no Hitomaro Collection
- Source
- Manyoshu
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