Tsurashi to wa omou mono kara koishiki wa ware ni kanawanu kokoro narikeri - Shui Wakashu(English Translation & Meaning)

つらしとは思ふものから恋しきは
我にかなはぬ心なりけり

Roma-ji: Tsurashi to wa omou mono kara koishiki wa ware ni kanawanu kokoro narikeri
English Translation: Though I think of you
as nothing but cruel and cold,
that I long for you
is because this heart of mine
will not do as I would wish.
Meaning: Though I think you cold, I still long for you; it turns out this heart of mine simply will not do as I would have it.
Commentary: Book Fifteen Love Poems V 946

Headnote continued from the preceding poem: "Topic unknown"
The poem says that what longs for the other even while thinking them cold turns out to be a heart that will not obey me. It sees the heart that cannot suppress its longing, even when reason recognizes the other's coldness, as something that is one's own yet beyond one's control.

First line, "tsurashi to wa," means "that you are cold."
Second line, "omou mono kara," means "though I think so," with "mono kara" adversative. It shares "mono kara" with 932, 943, and 944 in this book.
Third line, "koishiki wa," means "that I long for you." It is the same as the third line of 944 in this book; where 944 asks the reason for the longing, this poem finds the answer in a heart that will not obey.
Fourth line, "ware ni kanawanu," means "that does not do my bidding."
Final line, "kokoro narikeri," means "it was the heart," with "keri" expressing the exclamation of discovery. It shares with "kokoro futatsu arikeri" in 989 of this book a sense of one's own heart as unruly.
Author: Unknown Poet
Source: Shui Wakashu
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