Omoikane nao koiji ni zo kaerinuru urami wa sue mo tōrazarikeri - Senzai Wakashu(English Translation & Meaning)

思ひかねなほ恋路にぞ帰りぬる
恨みは末も通らざりけり

Roma-ji: Omoikane nao koiji ni zo kaerinuru urami wa sue mo tōrazarikeri
English Translation: Unable to bear it,
back again to love's road
I have returned after all;
resentment, to the very end,
cannot be followed through, I find
Meaning: Unable to bear it, I have come back again to the road of love; resentment, I find, cannot be followed to its end.
Commentary: Book Fourteen Love Poems IV 885

Headnote: "Composed as a love poem at a poetry contest"
This poem was composed as a love poem at a poetry contest. Unable to bear it, he says, I have gone back after all to the road of love; resentment could not be followed through to the end. He meant to break off his love in resentment at the beloved's coldness, but unable to endure his longing, he has returned to the road of love after all, and the poem conveys the weakness of a heart that cannot hold to its resentment. Drawing on "ji," "road," in "koiji," it strings together words of the road, "returning," "end" and "passing through."
The author, "Shun'e Hōshi," was the son of Minamoto no Toshiyori. He became a monk of Tōdaiji, named his residence at Shirakawa the Karin'en, gathered many poets there and held poetry gatherings and contests. A poem of his is included in the Ogura Hyakunin Isshu.
The next poem, 886, is likewise a love poem from a poetry contest, and the two stand side by side.

First line, "omoikane": "kanu" means unable to do something, "unable to bear my feelings."
Second line, "nao koiji ni zo": "nao" means "after all," and "koiji" is the road of love. "Zo" is an emphatic particle that binds with the attributive "kaerinuru" in the third line.
Third line, "kaerinuru": "nuru" is the attributive of the completive "nu," "I have gone back." It is an associated word for "koiji," and the poem pauses here.
Fourth line, "urami wa sue mo": "urami" is the resentment of the beloved's coldness, and "sue" the end, the farthest point. "Sue" is also an associated word for "koiji."
Fifth line, "tōrazarikeri": "tōru" means to carry through and is an associated word for "koiji." "Keri" expresses the exclamation of realization, closing on the recognition that it could not be followed to the end.
Author: Shun'e
Source: Senzai Wakashu
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