Ikabakari hito no tsurasa o uramimashi uki mi no toga to omoinasazu wa - Shika Wakashu(English Translation & Meaning)

いかばかり人のつらさを恨みまし
憂き身のとがと思ひなさずは

Roma-ji: Ikabakari hito no tsurasa o uramimashi uki mi no toga to omoinasazu wa
English Translation: How bitterly then
would I resent the coldness
you have shown to me,
had I not made myself think
it the fault of my sad fate
Meaning: How bitterly I would resent your coldness, had I not made myself believe it was the fault of my own unhappy lot.
Commentary: Book Seven Love Poems I 198

By believing her coldness is the fault of his own unlucky self, the poet manages not to resent the beloved. The poem shows a sad resignation that keeps the heart steady by blaming oneself instead of the other.

The first line, "ikabakari" (how much), asks about degree and lets one imagine the depth of resentment.
The second line, "hito no tsurasa o," refers to the beloved's heartlessness.
The third line, "uramimashi," uses the counterfactual "mashi" to mean "I would have resented," with a break after the third line. Poem 200 of this book also asks, with "uramimu," where resentment should be directed, treating the same theme.
The fourth line, "uki mi no toga to" (as the fault of my sad self), turns the blame upon the speaker.
The final line, "omoinasazu wa," is a negative hypothesis that pairs with "mashi" to form the counterfactual.
Source: Shika Wakashu
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